Made in Ecuador

Today I turn 25. I am a quarter of a century old. To be honest, I don’t really feel different. After my 21st birthday, I don’t feel like I’m getting older. That doesn’t mean that I lie about my age, I don’t mind getting older. I think the reason I’ve been freaking out about this birthday is because I’m now considered an adult. What a mouthful. In a previous post I stated that I never wanted to become an adult, not because I want to be a kid forever and avoid responsibilities. I love taking care of myself and crave to be 100% economically independent. However, from observations and discussions with adults, I’ve found that most [adults] accept the monotonous routine of life- going to work, cleaning/organizing, going out etc. There is no real reflection on their lives, their goals or themselves. I know that you need to pay your bills, mow the lawn, take care of your kids (if you have them) hence at the end of the day it’s nice to watch some TV and shut down your mind. BUT I don’t want that, I don’t want to fall into that pattern. That’s probably why I fear becoming older and doing adults “things” like getting married, getting a desk job. I don’t want to lose my passion of fighting and working for the Latino community. I don’t want to get sucked into a “normal” life. I just hope I don’t get so tired that I see the injustices in our world as inevitable.

Then again, I know that I am different from the general populace, I know I look at the world with different eyes and analyze it more critically. That may sound elitist, except I don’t think my lifestyle is for everyone. I just hate the fact that it’s judged and questioned by society. A friend of mine, who I hadn’t talked to in almost a year, called me today to wish me a happy birthday. Very sweet. Then we proceeded to talk about our jobs, families, and love lives. He asked me when I was getting married, I said I wasn’t. He responded, “Oh eventually, huh?” I replied “No, not getting married”. And this went on for a couple of more rounds. It’s interesting how because I don’t want to get married, I’m considered a freak, a weirdo, I know it’s because I’ma woman and even more so because I am a Latina woman. But that’s for another long post. Right now my mami is here and we’re going to eat cookies and catch up.

I’m so blessed ^_^